In Hebrew Shalom is peaceful, harmony, wholeness, completeness, prosperity.

 

For My Beloved Shalom,

Love is not easy to put into words, especially a mother’s love, the depth of which is unfathomable.

When I look at you now, my beautiful girl. I remember feeding you, nursing you. I had to be patient and willing to wait. You would drink slowly, mindfully. Filling yourself to prepare to be awake, aware and engaged in everything you did. I watched you grow this way, from sitting up, to crawling, to walking, to running, to sprinting, to climbing, dancing, coloring, playing, and practicing yoga with me. Everything you do, you make it look effortless because you took the time to learn, to watch and to know first.

I see you as a newborn in my arms in the shadows of midnight. Sweet baby girl, I can’t believe your Kindergarten year is over. Everyone told me it would go quickly and of course they were right. You survived a year of firsts, new friends, new school, new routine, and you did it all in stride. Your Mom survived too, although I think you handled it better than me.

I’m a little sad. Not because you are growing up, that’s natural and wonderful and expected, but because... Someday you’ll leave to make your own dreams and discover your own adventures. And I want that for you. But secretly, I’m already crushed at the reality that will be. You, and Kak Ruth  are the answer to my dreams. What a gift you’ve given me by just being you.

Talk about you and Kak Ruth . You love each other so much. You are like limbs of the other, Ruth and Shalom, Shalom and Ruth, perfect together, made for each other. You are yin and yang, a perfect balance. I feel blessed to watch your lives as sisters, as friends. You have a partner, a witness to your life in each other. Take care of your relationship, your bond. Love each other and hold your differences as a gift not a disadvantage. Help one another through life and never leave or hang up with out an I love you. Your favorite line is, “I can do it by myself.” Yes, I know you can, but sometimes let others help you.

As much as a mother raises her daughter, so does a daughter raise her mother. You have taught me many things as I have watched you grow. From you I have learned the power of a tender heart as I have witnessed your quiet kindness to others all of your life. You taught me how to find joy in the moment. You have the gift of turning the mundane into amusement. It reminds us to relax and not take everything so seriously. And you taught me about courage. Yes, like your name... In Hebrew the meaning of the name Shalom is peaceful, harmony, wholeness, completeness, prosperity. You are the daughter that every mother dreams of having. I could not be more thankful for you.

Our family life has been marked by transition. Please know that I am not a perfect Mom. But I promise to always do my best. Each chapter has a specific lesson that God, in His all knowing wisdom, sees that you must learn. Painful chapters draw us near to Him, and joyful chapters illuminate the glory and wonder of our world. Both are important. 

God will guide you for all the time become a honest and loving woman. You will always be wonderful, you will always be brave, you will always be beautiful, you will always be intelligent, you will always be strong, you will always be kind, you will always be perfect in my eyes. I’m proud of you, now and forever and I’m so excited to watch you grow.

Love always and forever,

Your Mom.